“What imperfect carriers of love we are, and what imperfect givers.”
Author: Rachel Khong
In Goodbye, Vitamin, her outstanding debut novel, Rachel Khong provides a crisp and affecting look at how early-onset Alzheimer’s can reshuffle the members of a family.
Thirty-year-old Ruth Young, who has just been dumped by her fiancé, moves back to Southern California to help her parents, who are knee-deep in their own hot mess. Ruth’s mother is scarily preoccupied with tending to a certain unspoken grief, while Howard, Ruth’s father, sinks into dementia. It becomes clear that Ruth is expected to act as Howard’s primary caregiver. Despite her sorrow and (frequently hilarious) neuroses, she assumes the role with tenderness and aplomb.
As if to compensate for Howard’s waning mind, Ruth begins to observe and describe everything, serving as his eyes, ears and memory. In brief journal entries, she writes it all down and gives clarity and voice to his deterioration:
“You mentioned that there were some things on your mind, but lately you were having trouble getting to them—accessing them. You had the feeling that all the thoughts were in a box covered in tape, and the trouble was there was too much tape, and the trouble was you didn’t have the proper tools to access them—no scissors and no knife—and it was a lot of trouble—every day it was new trouble—trying to find the end of the tape.”
All of Khong’s prose is like this: original and precise and empathetic, with the power to make the hair on my arms stand up.
Alzheimer’s, it goes without saying, is no party. But Goodbye, Vitamin is unexpectedly humorous. Ruth is a vulnerable and creative heroine who tries to make the best of a bad situation, holding her family together and even concocting a plan so Howard—an acclaimed professor of (you guessed it) history—thinks he’s still teaching at the university. Ruth’s two best friends, Grooms and Bonnie, likewise bring a great deal of playfulness to the plotline.
And the food. The food. It plays a central role. We understand right from the beginning, as Ruth and Bonnie devour baby carrots dipped in sugar as a chaser for vodka, that food—colorful, fragrant and juicy—is vital to the story. Lemons, cherries, tortillas, avocados, doughnuts, pistachios, rotisserie chicken, canned peaches in syrup: food makes a bold appearance on nearly every single page. Not only does Khong make her readers hungry (even a paltry meal of broccoli and popcorn got my stomach growing), but she asks us to consider food as both physical and emotional nourishment—how we long for it, resist it, even look to it for salvation. (On a side note, Khong’s first book is a non-fiction/encyclopedia/cookbook hybrid, All About Eggs: Everything We Know About the World’s Most Important Food. She’s such a clever writer that I want to read it. From cover to cover.)
The nature of memory is certainly not a new theme in literature, but Khong puts a fresh spin on it in Goodbye, Vitamin. Ruth wonders, “I realized I could remember something and he could remember something different and if we built up a store of separate memories, how would that work, and would it be okay?” This is the essential question posed by the novel, and Ruth ultimately arrives at more than one answer.
As Goodbye, Vitamin comes to a close, we know what awaits Howard as the plaques and tangles in his brain continue to prevent his nerve cells from transmitting normal messages: “The cells keep trying and trying and trying, but in the end they’re choked off. In the end, they die.” But Howard’s demise is his daughter’s awakening. She comes into her own with an unflinching new maturity.
Funny enough, what I loved most about Khong’s book—Ruth’s delightful, choppy little musings and meditations—was also what left me wanting more. It was such a treat to climb inside her head for 194 short pages that I would’ve happily stayed there twice as long.
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